What else can this guy do?
I make it a point not to whine here on the blog about work; it slips out on the twitter feed here and there; but it’s taking a real heavy load of intestinal fortitude to keep from going all LiveJournal over some static at work.
When I was at my last employer it seemed every day that I was under the gun of probable unemployment; that feeling may have been engendered by my first manager telling his entire team in no uncertain terms that our jobs were about as solid as tech stocks in 2000. This was 1997, we had just fired 23 people from my team (23 of the 25 that where hired along with me oddly enough)
I saw people get dismissed over and over, whole sections of the firm vanishing in the name of keeping the business trim. I suppose at the upper levels; this was the way to do it. After what six major layoffs (rifs) and so on I never shook the “I’m next” feeling. It pervades my work even now.
Why don’t others feel this way? Shouldn’t we feel this way? This, THIS is what I fear, losing the chance to get back in there and doing stuff that I can do. Not unemployment, losing the ability to make it all work. Today I was spending some of my Sunday working out how to deploy Puppet to improve system configuration management; this is after working out some rescue functions, which leads down a rabbit hole that I don’t want to follow…[Image credit to Jamie Mckelvie, from Phonogram Singles Club]